mentally mad

Wow! It's been awhile since I've written.
Okay, here's the update.
I had a bit of a nervy break. Of course, I am self-diagnosing.

Work and people drove me up a wall! I felt immense amounts of stress. I was not sleeping, eating or thinking normally. I was popping blood vessels in my fingers and in my wrist when completing simple tasks. I was bitchy. I did not like the person I saw myself turning into.

So, I requested a transfer at work (people in the workplace was the major source of my grief). No problem, granted within two weeks! I also requested to use some of my owed vacation time...that was denied.

I feel a bit closer to normal. Work still causes me tons of stress, but I guess I'm just one of those people that will always feel stress through work. I can deal with that. The people I work with on a daily basis are much more humane than the other group. There's less nit-picking, grumbling, complaining, negativity.

I have a tad bit of a problem. One of my relief workers is very persistent in wanting to date me. If we had met differently, I would eagerly accept his offers. I like him, and think he is a great guy. We get along fantastically. But, I am one of his supervisors at work. And the company we work for has very strong policies regarding fraternization. I cannot afford to be sacked. There are not many options for employment in my field. The company I work for dominates the market. So, I can not accept lunch with a terrific bloke. If only he would change employers! ( he is in an entry level position)

My biggest problem is I keep thinking about him. What would it be like to date him? does he give those great, full body hugs? on and on and on and on...